Moving On

Its been a month since I’ve become single and while things have been progressing better, its painfully slow. There are good days where I’m happy and content, excited with what the future will bring and curious to see what adventures lay before me. Then there are bad days where I’m be shut in from the world, tired and upset with the slightest reminder of her will push me into tears.

I’m working through the pain and the sorrow hoping that every day after the last will be better. Most of the time it is, for I’ve been going out and having fun with my friends and partying a lot. But there is still that feeling in the back of my head, in my chest of that pain and that lose. I’ve posted on here before thanking her for what she has given me for those three years and I still stick by that. I even forgave her for breaking up with me but it doesn’t make things go away instantly.

Something like this which is so profound and was so prevalent in my life cannot be turned off and forgotten in a blink of an eye. From what I’ve been told by others who went through similar experiences (some after 5 year relationships, others after 12 years!) that the pain will never go away but only be dulled as I get used to it. I’ll never forget her and I don’t want to. But at the same time I don’t want to be in pain either.

So I will move on because honestly what other choice is there? I will find someone else and I will fall in love all over again and I will take risks, make mistakes and go through it all over again. But this time around I have more knowledge and experiences to apply and be a better man for a woman out there.